Post Traumatic Life After Love
High Vibes to all.
Here is my update on life after losing my Best Friend & My Soul Mate in August 2024. Again, nothing in this world could have prepared me, my mind, or my heart for the experience of losing my partner alone, but the stress and drama that followed DIRECTLY after is the evil bringing I really would have never imagined. When I say directly after, I mean the night of his passing, which he passed that morning before I could fully open my eyes.
His mom passed away in 2015 and ever since, while understanding that I could never take her place, I wanted to be there for him and help him and his family in the home they resided in to add a “feminine touch”. I had not realized how much of a struggle and task that I would be taking on, but I loved that man dearly and pushed through. He loved his mother greatly and I loved that about him, but was very much still grieving her all of this time. By the time his mom had passed, we were about 3 years in (2012) so there was no way I was leaving him like that. I would say that I was afraid of commitment because of the many things that I had already been through, but I started to loosen my grip on my survival mentality a little bit.
Fast forward to his very unexpected passing in short, I had been through many unnecessary things throughout our time together that never was really per se “us” in general, but the people around us. That very night, there was a deep un-comfort and uneasy vibe from 2 of his family members (including other siblings) in general who I never met nor seen within the 13 years of knowing him, nor the rounded 10 years of me living in the space with them. They came off extremely judgemental with a lot of shady comments from that night on. Within a few days later, I started to notice a few things were not right, and she (the sister) pulled me outside because his father had specifically told me from his own mouth that he wanted to honor his son and that he didn’t mind allowing me to get back on my feet (me and Mike was resetting life the past few months prior so we invested in a few new things) and to let him know if i needed anything. She basically said that I needed to find somewhere else to stay, which I had nothing because I completely surrendered and committed myself to him and his family. They then over the course of the past 2 months were actively sabotaging me and playing victim to his father and others that refused to believe anything that I was speaking. I finally got fed up enough send cease and desist letters to them all, and somehow it all stopped.
In the calming of this storm, I told myself that I would not focus any further on them although I have developed a slight PTSD from it all in order to not attract anymore trauma and psychological stress from them. There are also other issues presenting themselves that I won’t mention yet, but will eventually tell my full story. His passing has been a complete nightmare for me. I now have been receiving good news and opportunities that I am beginning to become excited about. While I won’t mention them all due to the belief of monitoring spirits, about being able to move. My goals and desire is to move out of here by December and I have been working hard and trying to the best of my abilities to put things together daily, for my full day. I am not the person to ask for anything, I honestly usually dread it. If at all you could help in any way, whether service, product, or donation, please do as I navigate this new world and era for me and the kids. I am really trying my best to rebuild and move forward for our peace of mind and rest. My donation page can be found here. Thank you!
